Sad

So yesterday i was at the public library downtown waiting for my ride and there was a younger black woman waiting on the benches. She had 5 kids between the ages of 9 and 2. The oldest boy was lying out on the bench looking through a book but the other 4 were running around, sometimes throwing rocks, opening the book return slot etc, just being kids. The woman was not interacting w/ them at all, she had her head down by her thighs and would lift it up to say stuff like "Stop it! Get over here!" And then her head would go down again and she would clench her fists, she just seemed depressed that she had so many kids. I want a child (so badly) but never want to feel those feelings that she exhibited.